Cleaned my room finally! Or more of rearranging stuff in the room. Now its more conducive to dwell on. I was planning to throw out things that Im no longer using but being a pack rat myself I had a hard time doing so. In the end everything went back inside. I still need to do another sweep of the cabinet because there are things in there that should not be in there. The cleaning killed almost half of my day.
I took a shower since I was filthy after that. Then sleep...
Woke up around 6-ish I think? Ate dinner then went to Chunky's to help wipe out the beer supply in the world. I went there and was not allowed to go in since I was wearing shorts and flip-flps. Apparently they have this new dress code policy. So, I looked for the ever trusted Grace to probably get me a sit even outside. However, it was useless. I went back home and changed outfit. I was planning to drink a couple of bottles only but because of the wardrobe changed and since knowing my alcohol capacity I ended up ordering a bucket of cold beer.
Yes! Six bottles in total... I learned from my dad that if your going to drink then make the most out of it. Smart!
So there I was in one corner all by myself with the bottles of beer. I started drinking. It felt weird drinking alone in Chunky's. Most of the time I have company with me. Macky was in QC. I want to spare myself of the travel time and being the third wheel to the lovers. So I made myself comfortable.
Here are the major thoughts that entered my mind while being intoxicated:
1. I can not have everything to my advantage. My work is really good but there some aspects that really gets me down. Disappointing really but there is no perfect working environment. So far the cons are still minimal compared to the pros. Im being nice here.
Still I can not see myself transferring to another company in the near future. It is so hard to start all over again.
I am not the best among my colleagues but certainly I am not the least. Average...
Its always been like that. I really don't aim high because I afraid to fall fast and hard.
Im excited to go back to work on Monday maybe because my boredom is hitting a critical level.
2. Its hard the to find someone who will serve as your life partner. (Yes! Here I go again!)
Some of my friends told me to wait, so I waited...
Some suggested that I look, so I searched...
Some said be patient, well it might run out soon...
Im not deprived when it comes to love and relationships. I had my fair share. Maybe now Im looking for the one, again. I dont know how to define it. I need to feel it in order to tell. Im more in touch with my emotions when it comes to relationships. In a way stupid...
I met someone recently and I was overwhelmed. Good looks, great sex, interesting converstions... I told myself I can start something with this guy. So i did.
However, I feel that this is not going so well.
I guess I got used to my past relationships or attempted relationships that Im making the effort and also the other one is putting an effort as well to make things work. Give and take...
I was thinking that the world right now is really unpredictable. One day everything is good then it will just burst after. I learned from experience that this can happen to me all over again. Im starting to doubt myself. Can words alone make me do a 360? I should be wiser. Like what I always say...
"Sex talk is trash talk."
Its not really disappointing but I can not help but feel bad about it. I've known the guy for more than a couple weeks so if it will end then it will pass by easily. Such a waste if it will be over soon. He is really cute!
I guess I had my 4th bottle when I had these thoughts running in my mind...
Then most of the things are blurred out because I was pretty much buzzed already.
The last thing I remembered doing was walking home, took my clothes off, washed my face and waking up very early this morning with a pounding headache! Strong Ice is dangerous when your drinking alone.
BTW, I paid my for my drinks!
Day 4:
I woke up early but did not move for the next hour. I can feel my brain dropping from side to side, I swear!
Finally felt hunger so I forced myself to get up and get something to eat. I ended up eating in FD (the carinderia on the corner of Washington). I ordered Bulalo.
Yes!
BULALO!
The nerve to order a meal that could have been my last! But it was good.
After that I lied again on my bed. But before dozing off again to Fantasy Island I got up to defrost my ref and I was able arranged the ktichen stuff as well after. Washed a shirt that I'll be wearing tomorrow since I have not taken my clothes to the laundry yet. Productive still...
Then sleep... (More sleep, more chances of winning!)
My bestfriend Polo is currently here with Jay and their in Monster Land currently.
(Playing Monster hunter in PSP)
My other bestfriend Macky went out with EA for a dinner party in Greenbelt. I finally got the chance to blog! Thanks to the wi-fi connection from one of our neighbors which is unsecured I can blog in the comfort of Macky's room while listening to Mariah's high notes.
So, technically this is the last day of my leave since tomorrow will be my rest days but I will still put my entire day into words.
If salary will be available by tomorrow morning I'll pay my gym fee and work out!
A long, hard work out!
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